johnsnaenae

Now, I can take this as utterly depressing.. or a reason for encouragement.  Perhaps after a weigh in tomorrow, the moment of definition will be revealed if I’m truly making some progress.  But as it stands just now… it’s depressing.

I know.. look on the bright side… you have a pool in your back yard… hahaha.. no one will see me anyway… ;)  But I want to be at least 20 lbs down my spring time.  I’m so hungry by the late afternoon… to try and cook while I’m shaking and trying not to be irritated by everyone and everything… it’s overwhelming at times.

I can and WILL do this.. this is MY YEAR… It’s all about ME and MY getting healthy.. warding off Diabetes… having fun with my children and making my husband proud of my accomplishment… bless his heart.. he loves me as I am now.. fluffy and all… God sent me a good one!!

Each day is getting better.. but as weigh in looms.. I beat myself up over what I ’should’ve, could’ve’ done.

The responsibility of MY success OR failure, lies within myself!  Victoria Secret Swimwear…. Here I come!

Awww… You all are too kind… thank you for such kind words and encouragement.

I actually did make some wise choices.. I ate Kashi crunch cereal and an activia yogurt before I left on the road.. for lunch: the kids wanted Zaxby’s… so I got a Zalad.. with GRILLED chicken.. low cal ranch.. and I only ate one half of the toast and moved the cheese and fried onions to the side.. albeit I LOVE cheese… I ate the 100 calories cookie snacks while on the road.. limited myself to two snacks.. one for mid morning and one at mid afternoon. Dinner.. Hubby wanted Chinese takeout… I just put a couple pieces of sesame chicken on a smaller plate with rice… left the egg roll alone!

I’m truly grateful for all of you… it’s so nice to be apart of a truly compassionate board. I wish you all the greatest of success!

Have a great week!

Talli

Traveling tomorrow.. will be on the road a good 12 hours.. to include breakfast and lunch. Trying to remind myself to make wise choices via the fast food train…. yikes… I know what to do… I’m a professional dieter.. I’ve done WW.. JC.. and No carb.. I prefer to eat real food… JC was easy… no guess work… but it’s expensive… and it really doesn’t teach you how to eat as quickly as it should.. but therein again… I know what to eat it’s just making myself be determined with my willpower! But each day, each week… get’s me closer to my 40th birthday… and on that day… I want to have reached my weight loss goal. I can do this… I REFUSE to be a diabetic like others in my family… I want to be healthy.. I want others to look at me and say, ” wow.. .your 40?” Your kidding me right? haha… hey… it could happen!

Ok… well… today is the first day of my journey in reaching my goal of losing 40lbs by my 40th birthday, December 1, 2008!

I did well today… I walked on the treadmill with an incline for 40 minutes and then I did crunches on the ab lounger!

I have set my caloric level on 1200 with an intake of fat grams of 20. I went over by 185 calories and over 8 grams of fat. So, I’ll be more aware of what I’m having for dinner since that is where my problem happened… even though I didn’t eat the usual portions .. it was considerably less.